Wednesday, July 27, 2011

in my weakness

I'm feeling like a screw up today.  Details not important.  'Cause they're trivial, really, in the grand scheme of things.  WAY trivial when compared with other mishaps in the recent past.  Sigh.  I'm mad at myself.  Feel like I've let everyone down.  Wondering if I have what it takes for this tough job I've committed to. 

I turned on the IHOP Prayer Room webstream for some help in changing the atmosphere and my state of mind.  Heard my heart's cry and balm for my soul:

I'm holding on to your divine love
I'm holding on and I'm not letting go

It's not my zeal
It's that your love is strong
It's not my strength 
It's that you're faithful

I look into your eyes of mercy
And I remember that your heart is for me.

3 comments:

Beth G said...

Awesome! I hear ya! I appreciate your words of encouragement to me, thank you for that. And thank you for posting this too. I needed it! Just know you are NOT a disappointment to God (or anyone else for that matter). This time of parenting is wonderful, but tough! God chose you for these little people because He knew you would love them and care for them well. You remembered all of the kids and forgot something else; that tells me your priorities are in order! ;O)

Jen said...

I have had those moments too... Keep reaching for Him.

Nicole said...

Me too, Jerusha. Me too. Yesterday was kind of one of those days, but actually because of my oldest. LOL. It's not supposed to be easy, right?